well I was just going to give up!  I totally blew it last month with all the emotional eating.  I didn't eat massive amounts of food just the wrong foods.  Starchy and sugary carbs make me blow up like a balloon!  I did better on the weekend and am concentrating on getting through the rest of the day being "good".  A major source of stress and drama is gone from my home now and so things will get better. Plus the SUN is coming out!  Well not much today though. The weather really affects my mood and my level of pain. maybe I should moved to Arizona!! I will check in later in the week.  I've found that I do SOOOO much better if I blog regularly!