I've been so crazy with things that i hadn't realized that I hadn't blogged for a while. 

My diet has been up and down but I still am able to control the binge eating going into my second month! When I'm all stressed out WATCH OUT , and boy have I been stressed for 4-5 months now!  You would not believe how gray I've gotten too. 

I'm finding the days that I DON'T do well is when I don't plan ahead. For example I was busy yesterday and didn't get to eat until the cafeteria in the building was closed.  I was too busy to go to a neighboring building so lunch was chips, M&Ms, diet Coke and a bagel and cream cheese!  It would be nice if there were healthier options in the vending machine.   Or I don't get lunch and I'm so starving i get fast food on the way home because I'm too hungry to wait. Yeah I could get a salad but it's kinda hard to eat when driving! 

When I've done well I've planned ahead and packed my lunch. Snacks of nuts or sugar free gum were always on hand on my car and purse.  I'd munch of veggies throughout the day so i didn't get too hungry. Guess the key right now is to take the time to plan and not be so lazy.

I'll be touching base soon and hope to have a glowing report. See ya later!

Well finally back to normal-"ish" and able to do some light exercise.  Had a rough few weeks after an altercation with a big, deep pothole!  The pothole WON unfortunately :-(  and jarred & aggravated my arthritic, degenerative spine and damaged my car to a total of just over $2200!!! Yeah some of those potholes can be car killers! The only exercise I have been able to handle has been making it to work and taking the kids to a couple baseball games. Totally wiped out afterwards. Today is the first day I haven't taken any pain medication or muscle relaxants but I'm having to look down a lot at work and it's getting aggravated but I think Tylenol should be adequate. SO no massive weight loss because of the lack of activity and I was too "down" to diet but I'm proud to say I have control over binge eating so I've lost a bit of the weight I gained last month with all the previous drama going on. Very hopeful that I can lose a bunch by the time the contest ends!

well I was just going to give up!  I totally blew it last month with all the emotional eating.  I didn't eat massive amounts of food just the wrong foods.  Starchy and sugary carbs make me blow up like a balloon!  I did better on the weekend and am concentrating on getting through the rest of the day being "good".  A major source of stress and drama is gone from my home now and so things will get better. Plus the SUN is coming out!  Well not much today though. The weather really affects my mood and my level of pain. maybe I should moved to Arizona!! I will check in later in the week.  I've found that I do SOOOO much better if I blog regularly!

Ok Ladies.You can understand this secret weapon to lose a few pounds...fighting a weakness with another weakness...SHOPPING! I found a really awesome summer top and bought it just a size too small!   I tried it on and I can wear it but it's a little too snug so really isn't flattering unless I lose a few pounds.  I tried it on again this morning and I plan on trying it on whenever I get the urge to binge!   I can't wait to be able to wear it!  I cringe at the thought of wasting money if I can't wear it THIS summer so I have to get going right away because summer doesn't last very long!  I feel the appetite suppressant effects working already LOL.  If this plan works I'll have to find something really special to be ready to fit into by fall!

I'm certainly not a weight loss inspiration for anyone that's for sure. I'm really struggling right now because of stress eating!  I'm under so much stress and pain right now and the only way I'm coping is eating starchy, fattening comfort food of the kind that makes me gain weight no matter how little I eat!  I thought I had a handle on it but it keeps fighting back and I'm getting so discouraged and even had several episodes of binge eating.  I probably gained this month!!! So I made two major decisions to resolve a couple of the issues that I CAN take control over that have been causing major stress in my life. It was really hard but I feel a little better now.  If I can change the things that I can control maybe I can regain control over my eating :-) I'm not going to give up.  I just have to find a way to deal with stress without using food!

Happy Memorial Day to everyone. Salute to all our men and women in uniform.

Well it's been a bad week. My neck and back flared up badly (I have degenerative disc disease) and I've barely been moving and I've gotten depressed and so eating "bad" stuff.  Again this morning I was in so much pain that I was going to skip another water fitness class.  Instead I forced myself to go.  My effort was far from 100% and I really struggled at times but I'm glad I went. The Y has a whirlpool with some great jets that helped some with the spasms.  I managed to do a little bit of yard work despite my discomfort too. It was only about 20 minutes but it was better than sitting on the couch feeling sorry for myself.  I did a few  hikes in the neighborhood with the kids too. Again it wasn't much but I managed to get in short bursts of activity throughout the day.  I was very surprised just now to find that my efforts amounted to 5.6 miles! SO....I ended up having a very productive day!  I'm pretty miserable now and I'm definitely going to have to crank up my heated mattress pad (wonderful to have a toasty bed when you're hurting!) but I'm feeling much better about myself.  I think I've learned a good lesson, some activity is better than none and it makes me feel better about myself. Also one of my grandson's had his opening day at baseball and hit a bases loaded triple! Go Dev! That makes me feel good too!!!!!